Loads of thoughts and thinking today!
Today has been a day with alot of thinking och plans for the future and also the present. Woke up at 5 am since my cousin went home at 6 am this morning with the bus, poor girl, travell for 8 hours! But she is good, she1ll do that brilliant! Couldn´t fall asleep after she left so I sent a few job applications to different jobs in Ireland, read gossip magazines, layed in the sun for an hour and talked to Karen in Ireland through the computer. And off course, my mind has thought so many thoughts today.... going nuts here in the house at the moment.
The really nice thing that happened today is when Krystle called from Ireland and we talked for a good while about the house, what furnitures they got from people and family, when everyone is moving in and how much they had done. Talked a bit about my arrival aswell and it made me soooo happy. Soon it´s 10 days to go... cant wait!
Here at home it´s really depressing...... Tomorrow me, mum and her man Per having a talk about money, not the nicest thing! He has really showed me what kind of person he is during the time I have lived here. Only thinks about himself and his son all the time, he is so sneaky, cant do anything for anyone else without it´s alot off hassel all the time. Was thinkig today about how much he has actually helped me with things during everything that has happened in my life the last few years and I realized that he has actually not helped me once!!! Well, not without getting anything for it.
For example; My grandad passed away end of may and the funeral was end of june, he is now actually asking me for money for the gas since I went in their car! And me and my mom went to the hospital 2 times, first time when he was still able to talk and stuff and the second time when he actually passed away, he hasnt said a word to me about he is sorry that he passed away or anything and now he wants money for the gas and also rent for the 11 days I live here in the house now in august! I´m totally ok with that I have been paying the months I lived here, but since I now don´t have a job or any more income, moving away to another country and set up a new life over there you could think he be a bit nice to not take for those 11 days or for the rent!!!!!!!
i mean, how many parents/ steph parents actually wants money for gas when the grandad passes away???? I just don´t understand how he thinks?! He is pisses me off totally and I just bite together now and stay in the room all days long and just avoiding to be around him cause otherwise I wont be able to shut upp. But we are having the big talk tomorrow so just have to wait until then and I promise you all one thing, if he askes for money for the 11 days in august I will tell him both 1 and 2 things!!!! Have to then find a place I can live in until im going cause I will not give him the satisfaction of taking money from me for those days, and Im thinking that I payed for the whole july but was only here for 1 week of it. Ok, I know, if you have a flat you pay for it even if you are away for eeks, but this isn´t an appartment, I rent a room wich is about 4*5 meters and have everything in boxes. Don´t use any of the house really so it´s shite and they are using the computer aswell in my room since they have it here. Thats wath bothering me! Am I totally stupid or am I right? What do you all out there think? Would you do the same???
Anyhow, 11 days to go, thats what keeping me together these days and just wait for the explosion tomorrow evening!
Hope you all had a better day then I had, tomorrow Im going to a friends house and talk loads. A girl that I can talk to about anything really and she is desame with me so it´s gonna be nice.
Sorry about the complantes this early in my blog, but just had to write off me a
The really nice thing that happened today is when Krystle called from Ireland and we talked for a good while about the house, what furnitures they got from people and family, when everyone is moving in and how much they had done. Talked a bit about my arrival aswell and it made me soooo happy. Soon it´s 10 days to go... cant wait!
Here at home it´s really depressing...... Tomorrow me, mum and her man Per having a talk about money, not the nicest thing! He has really showed me what kind of person he is during the time I have lived here. Only thinks about himself and his son all the time, he is so sneaky, cant do anything for anyone else without it´s alot off hassel all the time. Was thinkig today about how much he has actually helped me with things during everything that has happened in my life the last few years and I realized that he has actually not helped me once!!! Well, not without getting anything for it.
For example; My grandad passed away end of may and the funeral was end of june, he is now actually asking me for money for the gas since I went in their car! And me and my mom went to the hospital 2 times, first time when he was still able to talk and stuff and the second time when he actually passed away, he hasnt said a word to me about he is sorry that he passed away or anything and now he wants money for the gas and also rent for the 11 days I live here in the house now in august! I´m totally ok with that I have been paying the months I lived here, but since I now don´t have a job or any more income, moving away to another country and set up a new life over there you could think he be a bit nice to not take for those 11 days or for the rent!!!!!!!
i mean, how many parents/ steph parents actually wants money for gas when the grandad passes away???? I just don´t understand how he thinks?! He is pisses me off totally and I just bite together now and stay in the room all days long and just avoiding to be around him cause otherwise I wont be able to shut upp. But we are having the big talk tomorrow so just have to wait until then and I promise you all one thing, if he askes for money for the 11 days in august I will tell him both 1 and 2 things!!!! Have to then find a place I can live in until im going cause I will not give him the satisfaction of taking money from me for those days, and Im thinking that I payed for the whole july but was only here for 1 week of it. Ok, I know, if you have a flat you pay for it even if you are away for eeks, but this isn´t an appartment, I rent a room wich is about 4*5 meters and have everything in boxes. Don´t use any of the house really so it´s shite and they are using the computer aswell in my room since they have it here. Thats wath bothering me! Am I totally stupid or am I right? What do you all out there think? Would you do the same???
Anyhow, 11 days to go, thats what keeping me together these days and just wait for the explosion tomorrow evening!
Hope you all had a better day then I had, tomorrow Im going to a friends house and talk loads. A girl that I can talk to about anything really and she is desame with me so it´s gonna be nice.
Sorry about the complantes this early in my blog, but just had to write off me a
